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MORE REFLECTIONS ON SHOULD

So much of the suffering that I see for the people I give readings to has to do with an unconscious assumption that things shouldn’t be like this. Something shouldn’t be ‘wrong’. I ‘should’ be happy, or okay with this. Or this problem wouldn’t be a problem to other people, or it’s not that bad, so I should feel differently about it, or just get over it, etc. Especially common is the thought - I shouldn’t be having such a hard time with this.

Whatever this is.

This thought is harmful because it’s becomes a way that we’re fighting with reality. Feeling some way about some situation, and then adding the judgment that you should feel or experience it differently, makes it worse. Judging other people for how they are feeling about some situation also makes their situation harder, not easier, and makes it less likely that they will stop feeling that way about it.

This judgment is especially invisible when it’s enacted on ourselves - we don’t even see it as an action or a problem usually - because it is so habitual. “I’m so stressed about money. But I shouldn’t be stressed about money because I’m not starving.” “I’m stressed about this job I have that I know isn’t in my highest good, and I’m thinking about quitting, but I shouldn’t because it’s a job so many people would love to have.”

Insert whatever your stressors are in the above statements. You can almost always find millions of people with way bigger and more challenging problems than you. And! Being in contact with experiences vastly different from our own is SUCH an important part of mental health, societal change, the survival of the planet.

But! When we’re in these moments of stress and we say these things, it’s not really coming from that place of truly seeking to expand our own perspective. It’s coming from the place where fear and shame prevent us from really facing whatever our reality is. When you dismiss your own stress because you think it shouldn’t be that big of a deal, you’re actually just denying your own stress. Which does not make it go away. The truth is it doesn’t matter if it’s someone else’s dream job, or if other people are way poorer than you - the stress is still present if it’s present.

So instead of dismissing our stress or saying it shouldn’t be this way - and one good way you can notice if you are doing this is if you find yourself saying the word ‘should’ - what happens if we ask questions about it? Like, Oh! I notice stress is present. What is the story it is telling me? What other perspectives might help me alleviate it? What happens if I can’t alleviate it? What can I do instead - how can I accept it or at least acknowledge it, so that I might understand it better?

In this context a huge thing I find astrology helps with is to pull back from immediate circumstances and look at the deeper transformation occurring through these circumstances. They look really different for different people. For example, the Saturn Return, a transit that happens for everyone at a certain time, is in part about consciously claiming your adulthood - your complete self, not just your reactionary childhood self. For some this takes place in the form of a marriage, or a divorce, or having a baby, or getting really sick, or moving, or losing a job. For some it takes the form of very little outward change, and a significant inward shift. Some people go through it avoiding the change as much as possible, and not much happens. I say this as a reminder that we can’t know what will be the hardest or should be the hardest thing for ourselves or others, and it’s really a waste of energy to judge this.

It’s self-loving and world-loving to do what is in front of you. With as little judgment of what ‘should’ be going on as possible.


ARIES | March 21-April 19

Question - What if your identity was independent from your ability to do things?
Meditation - floating
Assignment - Pull your attention away from power dynamics and into a child’s perspective. Return to your gift for loving the new, and if there isn’t apparent newness in your life, practice seeing newly. Because the truth is there is never not a new moment. Don’t skip over things with your speed - ask more questions if you think you know, until you remember that you don’t. Remembering that you don’t know can feel free and light.

 

TAURUS | April 20-May 20

Question - What habits nourish your life?
Meditation - walking / repetitive movement
Assignment - Take stock of the habits that nourish your life and the ones that exhaust you or drain your life. Be honest. Shift one in a small way this week. Use the spirit of Uranus, the electric and new, as it moves into Taurus, to make sustainable and needed changes in your life.

 

GEMINI | May 21-June 20

Question - What do you give your life to?
Meditation - commitment.
Assignment - Where does your commitment show up? Who are you committed to? What are you committed to? What is consciously a commitment in your life and what has become a default commitment? Examine the role of commitment in your life this week and see what you learn.

 

CANCER | June 21-July 22

Question - When and how do you get perspective?
Meditation - a high point, a vista.
Assignment - Find a viewpoint this week, go there. Whatever you are feeling personally about, give it to this place, let it leave you there. Cast a spell, say a prayer, let yourself be psychic as you are and release what is old and tired. Release the past with a gesture as simple as blinking. You will want to hold onto it, even if it’s really painful, because you are used to it. But you don’t have to.

 

LEO | July 23-August 22

Question - When are your exchanges transactional and when are they relational?
Meditation - lightness.
Assignment - Spend some time writing about what you expect from people, especially in your business / work arena. One way you can learn what you expect from people is when you’re disappointed in them. Are there any themes / patterns you can see there? How can this awareness help your relationships?

 

VIRGO | August 23-September 22

Question - Where is the stagnant qi in your body?
Meditation - easy movement
Assignment - Reflect on how you move stagnant energy in your life. What practices help you with this? Recommit to doing those things this week, at least two times. Use this time to move anything through that needs to be expelled. Practice this as a way to practice love instead of fear.


LIBRA | September 23-October 23

Question - When and how do you touch your own body?
Meditation - your ability to heal yourself.
Assignment - Touch your own body this week - the last week of Libra season - give yourself this gift as you transition into the next year of your life. Rub your feet. Rub your skull. Rub your belly. Masturbate - but don’t just do that. Spend some time touching your own body and thanking it for everything it has done this past year, and everything it will do this coming one.


SCORPIO | October 23-November 21

Question - What do you want to attend to as this year of your life comes to a close?
Meditation - pulling back your qi
Assignment - The things that nag at you, the relationships or situations that feel unfinished - what part do you have to play in these? What can you do, for yourself and / or for others that could help you feel ready for this upcoming year? It could be a ritual, or a conversation, or a pilgrimage to a particular place. Write about this and make a plan for yourself for whatever you’d like to do in this way before your birthday.


SAGITTARIUS | November 22-December 21

Question - What kind of lighting do you live with regularly?
Meditation - your own internal light
Assignment - Turn off your electricity as much as possible this week. Use candles. Sit in the light of candles. Watch the flame of a candle as a meditation. Electricity keeps us going at a certain pace, and turns our attention away from what is quiet and in the shadows - it keeps us able to stay busy. See what happens to your energy when you turn it off early in the evening, or take a day or half day to not use it if possible and see what you notice. This can be a way of attending to and cultivating your own energy and light.


CAPRICORN | December 22-January 19

Question - What if you just let yourself say exactly what you want to say?
Meditation - speaking freely
Assignment - What happens when you say what you mean, what you want to, and don’t edit or hold it back? When do you do that? Are you protecting yourself or others from something? Do you or they need protecting? Experiment with more free speech this week and see what happens. Your tendency is to be more careful, and this serves you well. But what happens when you aren’t?


AQUARIUS | January 20 to February 18

Question - Where is your core, your center?
Meditation - the center point of a circle
Assignment - You can think about others and systems and groups and broadly so much, there can be a forgetting of the self. You don’t need to actively create a self or preferences or anything like that, but what happens if you ask the question where is my center? Or what is my center? Play around with this idea, this question this week. See what it might do to your attention, to your thinking about others. Thinking about others is only possible if we have a sense of self which we imagine differs from them, so it benefits all to know what we think that self is made of.

 

PISCES | February 19 to March 20

Question - What are you avoiding or escaping?
Meditation - storms
Assignment - It’s easy for whatever you might be avoiding or escaping to become instantly bigger in your mind because you label it as something you are avoiding. But imagine if you could ask yourself that question, and answer, and maintain self-love through the process? Imagine if it was okay - if it was, would you even need to avoid it anymore?

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Kate is an acupuncturist expressing the healing combination of Libra (aesthetics, harmony, balance) with Capricorn (grounding, practical, results-oriented). I asked Kate to respond to these questions as someone working in the healing arts, because I am fascinated with discovering and reframing the overlap between the political or collective impulse and the individual one. As a new mom, Kate is living in the center of these questions with a lot of grace as a healer and I’m so happy she has shared her beautiful perspective here.

Kate Maxey was born on a new moon in October, 1977.  She has a bunch of stuff in Libra with a Capricorn rising. She changed her last name in 1998 to her maternal grandmother’s maiden name; once the last name of an only daughter, it now lives on as the second last name of her own daughter, Azul. Kate has lived in over 30 homes in her life and as far as she can remember, usually took well to being the new girl. When she was growing up in Akron, Ohio she went to an all girls Catholic school and dreamed of becoming a lawyer and maybe going to Harvard- ha! Boy, did things not pan out that way (thank god). When her family moved back to California her life changed directions and she found her real self in the forests and oceans of Santa Cruz, in the liberal arts education that blew her little mind wide open and uncovered the Feminist inside, and in the diverse Goddess-loving community that destroyed insecurities left and right and implanted the wisdom that self-love and acceptance is key. Kate moved to SF in 2000 during which time she was a worker-owner at Other Avenues grocery store in the Sunset, went out dancing at least three nights per week and co-hosted “The Little Sister Show,” a pirate radio show out of her friend’s parent’s basement which focused on radical political announcements and raunchy or underground female Hip-Hop. She moved to NYC and then Barcelona in 2003-2005 where she worked as a life-drawing model, lived as a nanny and sold champagne and strawberries on the beach. The Shiatsu massage course that she took in SF in 2001 planted the seed of Yin/Yang Theory, so at 28 she moved back to the Bay (this time Oakland for 8 years) and embraced grad school for Chinese Medicine. She was lucky enough to find her acupuncture mentor at House of Qi in Bernal Heights with Joseph Chang with whom she worked and played from 2008-2017. Kate now posts up her practice at The Root in Noe Valley with her idols, The Midwives. She is married to a Basque Rock n’ Roller named Iban and they dream of one day making their home in the Basque Country on the Bizkaia coast. Kate is inspired to continue studying Chinese and Ayurvedic Medicine, Hatha and Yin Yoga, Astrology, Tarot, Buddhism, Spanish and Post-Partum love and wellness. She also has some creative ideas up her sleeve that involve alchemy, chandeliers and international handbooks that she one day hopes to share.  

When do you experience the most joy?

I have experienced the most joy watching my, now 11 month old, daughter laugh and squeal… and separately, on the dance floor with friends. My daughter, Azul, is an incredibly joyful spirit. Sometimes her laughter seems so knowing, like real experienced laughter of someone who realizes the value of a good time. We joke that she is the reincarnation of a 17th century little fat prostitute in a brothel (with her chubby knees and wrists and just a few teeth) who has no self-consciousness and just wants to have fun! Ha! Dance floors are few for me these days, but I have experienced bliss many times in the company of some of my favorite people as I vibrate to the music, the crowd and hours of nothing but purely buzzing around and enjoying. Hand and hand with Joy, but different, is peace. And Peace I experience in Nature (ocean, forrest, hot springs), hands down.  

Can you talk about the relationship between your own healing and your clients' healing? How do they intersect? Where do they diverge?

I consider myself fortunate that I have chosen a work path that intersects with my own spiritual and healing path. In an essence, this is why I chose Chinese Medicine: because I knew that I would never get bored, that it is a way of looking at the world which mirrors our bodies and visa verse… the lens is always applicable to me. I experience healing every time I work with a patient, simply by quieting my own mind to listen and focus on the moment with them. It becomes a welcome meditation- to slow down or become more alert, depending on what my day was like leading up to my work time. Either way, I know that what I am emitting becomes a part of my patient’s experience, so my first step to my own healing always begins with my breath. At the very least, if I allow my breath to be deep, slow and clearing then I can be open to my intuitive self as I choose points to hold or acupuncture for my patient. It is a gift that I have a job that reminds me to do this.  

Do you relate to the Libra tendency to think about other people so much that you don't know what you want or need? Or being conflict-averse? If so, how do you manage those tendencies?

Hmmmmm…. I definitely spend a lot of time thinking about the needs, desires and struggles of the people that I love, or those that I feel responsible to. This can get jumbled in my needs and can often translate to me spending a TON of time staying in touch and getting back to people so that they feel my support or presence. While my relationships give me so much (the world, really), it does at times get taxing and perhaps keeps me from having more energy and time to get quiet with myself and create from there.  

I am conflict-averse, especially when it comes to good friends. It can make me nervous just thinking about it. That being said, I can tend toward direct communication, or as my friend Timmy once said, “Kate drops truth bombs.” While I do follow the Libran tendency of diplomacy, seeing both or various sides of a situation, and having empathy… sometimes someone else’s patterns or stance appears very clear to me and it seems better shared than sugar-coated. Sometimes with my Libra sun and moon and Capricorn Rising (among other Air and Earth planets) things can boil down to a matter of logic or justice and I need to realize that others might have completely different motivations or truths in their worlds… or just need me to be patient with them. I’m still working on when it’s the right time to drop truth bombs and when to “un-relate” or disengage and allow the ones I care about to live without knowing my point of view. Libras like to share, you know, so just staying quiet is hard!

How has becoming a parent affected the above tendencies and/or your default habits?

Well, to be very honest, parenthood has heightened my anxiety (a long-present default) which has me searching for even more efficiency, more strategies that work, more fairness and more “rightness.” So, obviously, my husband gets the brunt of this. I think the hardest thing hands down about becoming a mother for me has been that all of the tools that I have collected over the years to ground my anxiety, decrease body pain, connect to Spirit, create magic, or sort through my feelings became almost out of reach for me due to extreme fatigue and minimal time alone. Of course, you can theoretically say that “spending time with your baby can be a meditation,” “stretch on the ground with your baby while she’s playing,” or “meditate before you go to bed,” and this is all true, but the time and ability to focus or look inward becomes so side-lined when it can fill a whole day just covering the basics for you and your baby. Ha! You gotta laugh. Now that Azul is coming up on a year, I feel the portals to time for myself opening again. I began to feel it when she was 9.5 months out of my womb. She has been sleeping through the night for the last couple of months, so that makes a big difference on the mama-zombie factor. Relationship wise, my husband and I are constantly navigating how to support each other getting the alone time that we need to feel sane and authentic, as well as relay our needs within the relationship. That’s where the management of truth-bombs gets hard when I feel like I (as a woman, as a mother, as a manifestor, as a witch) can see the bigger picture, feel responsible to manage it somehow so that it’s not forgotten, and want everyone on board with a vision (in a collaborative way, of course)!

Do you feel any tension between healing / transformation on a personal level and a collective level, and if so, how do you deal with that? How does your work factor into that?

I don’t think we can heal on a collective level without simultaneously healing on personal levels. Just as we know in Chinese Medicine and other holistic modalities, you can’t separate parts of a whole without taking into account how they reflect and influence each other. In the macrocosm of the universe we are microcosmic representations of the imbalances or synchronicity of the bigger picture. Just as I can treat shoulder pain by considering your diet and putting needles in your foot, I believe that we can affect the vibration of the planet and other beings in it by looking at our own health, a seemingly separate affair. The more joy, peace, connection to the Earth and to our own hearts that we feel the more respect we will know how to show each other and the more aligned we can all become in supporting a collective healing. Self-care really shouldn’t be a luxury, but should be supported as a good deed for society. 


ARIES | March 21-April 19

Question - What quiet or subtle actions might you miss in your busyness?
Meditation - breathing as political action.
Assignment - Still with the breathing this week. New Moon in Libra today means a lot of Libra energy this week - opposite your Aries sun - it might be jarring or it might be calming depending on what you need right now. This you can practice trusting - life is here to give you what you need. Meanwhile, you can help this process, and your ability to trust that, by breathing. This is probably frustrating for you as such an action-oriented being but try to breathe as your action, and see what happens. What if your breathing was political? What if it was a way into your own truth, right now? What if it helped you connect to everything you thought was missing?

 

TAURUS | April 20-May 20

Question - What is the relationship between your body and spirit?
Meditation - flowers.
Assignment - Consider the relationship between matter and spirit, or the material and the more ephemeral this week. How do flowers regard their own spirit, or their own bodies? What do they know about how to be with themselves that you can learn from? Are there any ways you get stuck in the material world and don’t remember to nourish the unseen in life? Attend to this relationship. Breathe air outside and let yourself contemplate these things without a goal.

 

GEMINI | May 21-June 20

Question - How much can you hold of what you receive?
Meditation - pelvic bowl.
Assignment - You’re such a connector and a fluid mover / thinker that holding, reserving, and maintaining can be hard. So what have you received lately that needs to be held in a reservoir? Is it money? Is it material resource? Is it your own psychic attention? Ask yourself about this and visualize your pelvis as a holder of energy and resource. Then ask your body what it needs to be able to contain resource as much as you need right now. Listen to the answer and act!

 

CANCER | June 21-July 22

Question - Where do you eddy out in emotions?
Meditation - connecting while staying in your own energy
Assignment - The Libra new moon can be an opportunity to you, even though your sun is in square with this energy - sometimes discordant energies can help spark a new, needed phase for us. Ask Libra what it can teach you right now about pulling out of your tendency to stay in the emotional realm and see things newly from further up in the sky. Ask what it can teach you about connecting to others even when you are inside of the world of emotions.

 

LEO | July 23-August 22

Question - What do you withhold that might make your life more painful?
Meditation - sharing your brightness freely.
Assignment - You have a light, that fire light, that comes naturally to you. When do you share it freely, without strings? When do you share it conditionally? Find a new way to be generous with your light this week, and see what happens. Find someone or something to share this with, and notice how you feel.

 

VIRGO | August 23-September 22

Question - What do you miss out on because of your initial impressions?
Meditation - citrus
Assignment - In the speed of your judgment, you can miss out on many things - including your own talents, your own victories, your own arrival moments. And other people - their nuances, the full range of their humanity. So experiment with pulling back on the judgments this week, in a soft way, not recriminating yourself for judging. After all judging is how we move through life - we decide what works for us and what doesn’t. But notice your initial impressions of any situation (especially those involving yourself and your work) and bring a little judgment to the judgments themselves! See what happens.


LIBRA | September 23-October 23

Question - How much of your day includes a feeling of indecision?
Meditation - feet on the floor
Assignment - Experiment with acting more and deliberating less. Find a small thing you can practice this on that doesn’t feel too big, and see what happens this week. This can be a way of bringing more awareness to your decision making process and illuminating where you eddy out.


SCORPIO | October 23-November 21

Question - What information do you receive from nature?
Meditation - nature is psychic
Assignment - Spend time noticing what information you receive from your environment, the outside environments you are in. What is this information? How does it help your life? How might you listen to it more often / completely so that it could help even more?


SAGITTARIUS | November 22-December 21

Question - Where are the comfortable places in your life?
Meditation - comfort as access to opening
Assignment - Comfort can be something that prevents us from growing or it can nurture us so that we can grow more. This week, spend time noticing where you feel comfortable and where you don’t. If you notice there is very little comfort, or comfort all the time, experiment with bringing this into balance by creating more of what is missing.


CAPRICORN | December 22-January 19

Question - How much of your days feel hard?
Meditation - Letting it be easy.
Assignment - See if there are small ways you can infuse more ease into your life. It doesn’t have to be changing everything, but notice if you’re continually reinforcing the hardness of a certain situation by constantly meditating on its hardness. Seek out the places that it feels easy, even if they are very small moments, like walking to your car, or lying down at night to go to bed. Don’t miss the moments that it’s easy - that’s most of how you let it be easy.


AQUARIUS | January 20 to February 18

Question - What have you been eating lately and how does it contribute to your mental state?
Meditation - warming, slowing foods.
Assignment - Spend time focusing on your food this week. What foods help your nervous system calm down more, what foods ramp it up? How can your food nurture your airy self and help bring balance to it?

 

PISCES | February 19 to March 20

Question - How often is your body in a position of ease?
Meditation - attending to your body
Assignment - Notice what positions your body is in through the day and night. What does your position look and feel like at night? Where do you sit and stand during the day? Are there places you can bring more ease to your body by making small adjustments? Think about your body being in positions of dignity, and see how it feels to bring that to your various places and postures of your life.

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SAYING YES TO LIFE

It’s been a devastating last week over here in the US of A. Most of us respond to the spectacle of the national political situation with rage and/or hopelessness. We give up. Or we yell at everyone to call their senators and or blow up the white house, etc. Honestly, any response seems ‘rational’, to a completely irrational farce of a situation.

I bring this up because the tendency to want to either take dramatic, unsustainable actions or totally give up is such a human, common thing I see in myself and in others. This is the thinking that holds us back SO MUCH. We miss out on so much possibility, in what we want to eat, in how much we meditate, in changes we want to make to our relationships, to our jobs, to our finances, to our political nightmares, etc, because we think so short-term and so dramatically. It’s not going to do anything to make this small change so I’m not going to change at all, we tell ourselves.

This thinking keeps us in the trap that we call the bleak future, but actually, it is just us being depressed in the present.

I’m not even saying that what we do will lead to some political improvement. I don’t know that. What I’m saying is that what we do matters right now, in how it makes us feel, in this moment, with the people we live with and encounter - because as small as that seems, it’s the impact that most of us will have to show for at the end of our lives. So we need to do these things that represent our own saying yes to life, to each other, because of how it makes us feel, not because of what it might do. And if these things we do end up changing something bigger, that is a beautiful bi-product, but we do not have control over that. If we foreclose on possibility because of how dark this shit looks, then we foreclose on ourselves and this very moment, which is actually all we have. This very moment. In which to act in a way that says yes to life. Whatever that means to you.


ARIES | March 21-April 19

Question - How is your breathing lately?
Meditation - bright cream.
Assignment - Breathing. Resist the urge to make it more complicated than that. Return to the breath, if you do it enough, it really will provide what you are seeking.

 

TAURUS | April 20-May 20

Question - What are you harvesting this week because of what you set into motion last week?
Meditation - the elasticity of time.
Assignment - Harvesting. If you don’t already know what you are harvesting, make it your mission this week to see what is being harvested in your life right now. There is something - many things in fact.

 

GEMINI | May 21-June 20

Question - When do you seek information below you?
Meditation - dusty rose.
Assignment - Look down and in. Connect through the earth instead of through people and ideas. Move your awareness down beneath your feet, over and over.

 

CANCER | June 21-July 22

Question - What have you been doing for others that feels like a gift to yourself?
Meditation - ginger.
Assignment - Cooking. Return to this comfortable place. Cook something you love, let it be easy. Do it for yourself and for someone else.

 

LEO | July 23-August 22

Question - What is being neglected in your life?
Meditation - focus.
Assignment - Return to what is worthy of your attention. Do not miss out on the spirit of your life - on display at every moment in front of you - because you are fulfilling what seem to be pressing obligations. Do not wait.

 

VIRGO | August 23-September 22

Question - What do you look at in your work space?
Meditation - the relaxation of sunset.
Assignment - Revise what you see on your work space in some way this week. Make sure what you are seeing includes a symbol of the sacred, whatever that means to you. Let it help you relax into your life as it is.


LIBRA | September 23-October 23

Question - What will you sow now for the upcoming year of your life?
Meditation - living soil.
Assignment - Sowing. Take an action that is a movement toward something you want in the future. Make it a ritual. Give yourself time to adequately sow for the future.


SCORPIO | October 23-November 21

Question - Where do you find shelter?
Meditation - rooted to the earth.
Assignment - Tend to your home this week. Give it new life. Find a new way to let it be a refuge, even if it’s inadequate or stressful in some way.


SAGITTARIUS | November 22-December 21

Question - What can you learn from stillness?
Meditation - stillness.
Assignment - Find short periods of time to be still this week. Ask a question at the beginning of the stillness to sit with while you are being still. Use your curiosity and seeking mind to guide you into the activity of stillness.  


CAPRICORN | December 22-January 19

Question - What do you miss in your life because it’s not material?
Meditation - ephemeral, unseeable.
Assignment - Investigate the nonmaterial this week. What do you miss because it doesn’t count as real in your mind, including your own contributions that aren’t monetary or material? Be with these things, let them become more real by meditating on them.


AQUARIUS | January 20 to February 18

Question - What might life be asking you to see right now?
Meditation - deep blue shimmering.
Assignment - What is the opportunity in your struggle? Look to nature to help you see what you might be blind to - a perspective that will reframe your experience. Spend time in nature to cultivate this new seeing. Don’t try too hard, just put your body in a place that feels alive to you.

 

PISCES | February 19 to March 20

Question - What intuition are you not acknowledging?
Meditation - flexibility of sea legs.
Assignment - Let yourself be good at what you are good at this week. Let your intuition in. Even if you don’t act on it, acknowledge it. Everything in us just wants to be acknowledged, and the more you do this, the more peace you’ll feel.

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IDENTITY AND RELATIONSHIP

Full Moon today! The Sun has moved into Libra, and the Moon is opposite in Aries today. The connection between relationship and individuality is foregrounded in this Full Moon. When things happen that are out of our control - which happens an infinite number of times per day - we have an opportunity to see how deep the relationship runs between what we perceive as ourselves and what we perceive as other people. This relational truth is what Libra is about at its best. It’s opposite, Aries, is expressed when we embody and enact our own agency. Opposites in the zodiac remind us of how dependent they are on each other, and this is one reason why Full Moons are so powerful - because they remind us of how these polarities need each other in order to exist. We can’t understand our own identities without the sense that something other than us exists. And we can’t understand relation to others without the sense that we have an identity of some kind. Where does your perception typically fall on this scale? How much do you think about other people? How much do you think about yourself? When might you be confused about what you are actually thinking about?

Use this Full Moon potency to reflect on what is asking for balance in your life. And for things that feel like they can’t be brought into balance right now - remember that balance requires imbalance to exist.


ARIES | March 21-April 19

Question - How much do you practice deep listening with those you’re close to?
Meditation - listening.
Assignment - Spend as much time as possible not jumping to conclusions this week. Stay in don’t know mind. With your partner and really intimate relationships especially. There’s a tendency for you to be so quick in your judgments - it all happens very fast, and that serves you well. But it also causes you to miss a lot about others. Just come back to the present, to listening as attentively as you can to who is in front of you and what they are really communicating. This will contribute greatly to feeling more connected to those you love, and paradoxically, to getting what you need also.

 

TAURUS | April 20-May 20

Question - Who do you admire?
Meditation - sky blue.
Assignment - Meditate on those you admire this week - whether people you know or don’t know, and write about their qualities, what it is that moves you about them. What does this admiration reveal to you about what you value? Are there any gaps between what you admire and what you feel you can be or do? Write about that too. Don’t sell yourself short because of your practicality. There’s a way that admiration shows you about what you want your life to be! You can bring this in, you can cultivate this garden, your own.

 

GEMINI | May 21-June 20

Question - What brings you back down to earth?
Meditation - moss green.
Assignment - Contemplate the image of pulling yourself back to earth, back into your own body. Where is your conscious awareness most of the time? Is it in your head, above your head, away from your body, in your belly? Practice bringing it down, toward your center, lower and lower, while breathing deeply. Uniting the mind with the body has much more to do with our happiness than our circumstances do.

 

CANCER | June 21-July 22

Question - When and how do you use music in your life right now?
Meditation - yellow.
Assignment - Reflect on where and how you use music - is it an escape? Is it a buoy? Is it healing? Is it a way to connect to other people who love the same music? Is it a retreat or a return? Music can be all these things and more, and because sound and memory are so important to you, it probably is many of these things at different times. Just reflect and see what you find about how music shows up in your life. And see if you can bring more healing and presence into your life via music instead of just escape if you find that to be present often.

 

LEO | July 23-August 22

Question - How is your sexual life?
Meditation - sexuality and creativity.
Assignment - Reflect on your sexual life this week - what it has been in the past, what it is now, what you want it to be. How much you let yourself imagine what you want it to be. How it’s connected to your creativity. How do the two relate for you? Have you considered this before? Understanding the relationship in a deep way will likely help your fulfillment in both.

 

VIRGO | August 23-September 22

Question - When does your skepticism serve you and when does it hinder your connection?
Meditation - the opposite of skepticism
Assignment - Meditate on what is the opposite of skepticism. What does it feel like when you aren’t skeptical? Under what conditions do you find yourself not being skeptical? The opposite definition is along the lines of faith / trust / certainty. When do you experience those qualities? Are there ways you could let yourself practice those experiences more? What might that do to your connections with people?


LIBRA | September 23-October 23

Question - When do you feel calmest?
Meditation - easy.
Assignment - There’s a tendency for you to try to control situations and not feel or look like that’s what you’re doing. The control you try to exert usually appears to you and others as trying to be nice or accommodating, to make sure people are happy. But this is a form of attempting to exert control. Letting people not be happy is a challenging practice for you Libra, but one to return to again and again, because paradoxically it will allow you and those in your field to have more space and permission to be as they are. And when we feel this permission, we are naturally more connected to each other! Practice this allowing, and noticing when you are trying to control someone else’s experience, even when it seems benevolent because you want them to ‘be happy.’


SCORPIO | October 23-November 21

Question - Who do you trust the most and why?
Meditation - trust as a practice
Assignment - The more you trust, the better you will feel, the more connection you will experience with others. And this doesn’t mean that you won’t also feel hurt! But your tendency is to expect others to earn your trust and this can feeling tiring for others to be the recipient of this energy. Your fear is that you will be duped, or somehow the last one to know, so you put up a gate that people have to earn entry through by a series of tests they often don’t even know they are subject to. The important thing to remember in this tendency is that whether you are the first or last to know, we are still out of control of our experience of pain in interpersonal love! So you can set this guard down a bit and not take on so much responsibility for this pain or preventing it. Everyone experiences it, whether they are intuitive like you or not! AND, you don’t have to give up your savvy intuition! Just try on trust as a proactive practice, so that you are meeting others in the middle more, and see what happens to your relationships.


SAGITTARIUS | November 22-December 21

Question - Who do you not listen to that you might benefit from listening to?
Meditation - what remains out of your view.
Assignment - Keep your eye out for the things you tend to NOT be curious about. This includes people, art, plants, etc - influences that you aren’t drawn to. What might be held in these areas and beings that you could learn from? This is not a suggestion for more restless seeking, you probably experience plenty of that! It’s a reminder that the quieter, less interesting realms and beings can often hold the most insight and new awareness. What happens to your perspective when you consciously open to the things you have previously rejected?  


CAPRICORN | December 22-January 19

Question - What embarrasses you?
Meditation - daring.
Assignment - One way you can continue to discover what public opinion you are still concerned about is to notice what embarrasses you. Instead of trying to avoid this feeling, you can look deeply into it and be with it. You can use it as information, as a bell to remind you that an opportunity has appeared to become conscious of an old fear that you don’t have to harbor anymore. What is embarrassment and when does it show up for you? Or when do you imagine it will, or fear it will? How can you use this information to open to life and become freer?


AQUARIUS | January 20 to February 18

Question - What does your decision making process feel like lately?
Meditation - purple.
Assignment - What modalities / strengths do you draw on when you make decisions? How much do you trust your own decision-making process? When do decisions you’ve made feel good, and when do you doubt them? Are you trying to use your intellectual mind too much? Are you using your tendency toward extremism too much? When are your decisions reactionary, and when are they fully conscious, and how often do you notice the difference in real time? Give yourself some time this week to slow down and look at your decisions. Your life will benefit.

 

PISCES | February 19 to March 20

Question - In what ways does your intuition drain you?
Meditation - fullness
Assignment - Maybe it’s not the intuition itself, but it’s how you’re using it, or how aware you are of it. Often for people as psychic as you are, the intuition runs the show instead of you, so that you are unable to turn down the level of information you are receiving all the time - hence Pisces being known for wanting to escape, for good reason! But with awareness and practice you don’t have to escape so much. Take note of when you feel drained each day this week. Who were you with, what were you doing? When you connect feeling drained with a person or activity, it doesn’t mean you have to stop doing that thing or seeing that person (although that may be your medicine, at least for a while). But you can look a little deeper and see if there is some information input you can turn down. You don’t have to know what everyone is feeling and even more than that you don’t have to feel it yourself. Even just remembering this truth is a tool for maintaining more boundaries between your own psychic world and other people’s.

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WHO IS BRINGING YOU WATER?

The Fall Equinox happens this coming weekend on Saturday for those in the northern hemisphere This is the time of year when the amount of day light and the amount of darkness is the same. It’s a moment between the Summer Solstice, when there is the most daylight all year, and the Winter Solstice, when there is the least day light all year. So this is a potent opportunity to take note of the bodies we are in, the lives we are living, the location on the planet we find ourselves, its season, what is going on here.

What has your life been over this summer? What do you want your life to be during this fall?

As I’ve mentioned some in these past weeks, it’s been a challenging time for me. The other day I was in a pretty desperate place and I went to a restaurant. I sat down and the server gave me a glass of sparkling water without me even asking for it. This gesture made me weep. Something that he does every day at work, all the time, that most people probably don’t notice. He probably doesn’t notice! He had probably done it 43 times that day before I walked in. This is not even an occurrence in most of our developed-world days! But because I have been struggling and everything feels hard at times, I noticed. This is an unexpected gift of struggling, that arrives every once in a while. I thought, no one has ever appreciated this glass of sparkling water as much as I am right now. I can’t know if that’s true and it doesn’t matter, but I keep learning this truth over and over - our appreciation comes out of our suffering. Appreciation is about the places where we aren’t suffering, where someone or something helps us to suffer less. Shinzen Young suggests practicing meditation where you focus on parts of your body that DON’T feel bad, parts that feel at ease. What part of you feels at ease? In other words, what part are you likely not paying attention to because it’s not in struggle?

You can increase your own joy right this minute by noticing the places in your body that feel okay, or even good. You can increase your own joy right now by noticing when someone puts a glass of sparkling water down on your table for you to drink. It doesn’t matter if they notice, or even meant it to be kind. It’s still sustaining your life. You can notice that there are still plants living around you. That you have eyes that can read this. That you have a mind that can consider whether you agree with it or not.

Appreciation is not about flagellating yourself over what you have in life - this is why I sometimes avoid talking about it. It’s about not missing the nearly-impossible magic of what is conspiring toward your life in this very moment.

I’m not saying that the suffering people endure is “worth it.” I don’t think it is. But we don’t have control over that suffering. We have control over what we notice.

What will you notice in this hour? This day? This coming fall? What will you choose to see about how your life is unfolding?


ARIES | March 21-April 19

Question - What’s happening with your body in this space and time?
Meditation - laws of nature as protection, not a burden.
Assignment - Transition your diet into fall foods this week - warming, grounding, rooting. Moving from turbo summer energy to the beginning of the rest / composting / renewal cycle. Use the time you are eating this calming food to reflect on what the summer has been, and what you want the fall to be - especially the holiday time - you can set intentions now to help yourself stay more even through that time if you begin now!

 

TAURUS | April 20-May 20

Question - When do you pray?
Meditation - prayer as locating yourself.
Assignment - Experiment with prayer this week. If that word is too much / negatively associated for you, try something that doesn’t feel like prayer. The point is to do something that puts you in contact with your smallness, among the vastness of the planet, the solar system, the galaxy, the universe. Sometimes the intention or even wondering what it would mean to pray can offer a new perspective on what is going on here, and take a break from the everyday practical material Taurean perspective.

 

GEMINI | May 21-June 20

Question - When do you let yourself compost?
Meditation - leaves composting back into the ground.
Assignment - Write about what needs to be composted this week. In your psyche, in your life, in your fridge, in your relationships. Reread what you wrote. Take note of it. Breathe while you take note of it. Then rest and let it happen. Effort is not what is called for here, it’s more the opposite of effort, an allowing nature to run through your life, work its magic. 

 

CANCER | June 21-July 22

Question - What is health to you?
Meditation - health as connectedness
Assignment - When was the last time you thought about your overall health? When was the last time you actually asked yourself what your personal health looks like? Write about this. It’s not about judging yourself for not doing something or doing too much of something. It’s just everything shifts when we notice - so what needs attention to be noticed? Take some time to just reflect on what health means to you, and if there is a gap between that and what your daily life looks like. Do this with as much self-love and acceptance as possible!

 

LEO | July 23-August 22

Question - When and where are your fallow times?
Meditation - fallow as life-giving.
Assignment - You need the sun and creative life force perhaps more than anyone. But part of this includes fallow times, and if you don’t make space for them, they will come in a more jarring and/or extreme way to force you into taking time to recuperate. Use this transition into fall as a time to reflect on when and how you will invite - cultivate even - fallow times. It will be a good practice for the steady burn of your fire, instead of big fires and burn outs.

 

VIRGO | August 23-September 22

Question - When do you cultivate your visionary self?
Meditation - vast vision.
Assignment - As we transition out of Virgo season, spend some time visioning new possibilities for yourself. Let your sense of possibility grow bigger, let yourself dream more. Instead of just keeping your head down working like you always do, take some time to name your dreams. What do you really want but don’t talk about? What do you want but feels out of reach? Channel your fire brothers and sisters and imagine the obstacles are not fixed - because they aren’t. They seem large because you have this tendency to look at them and forget WHO is doing the looking. Who is doing the looking is the one who can create something much better and more beautiful and more relevant than the problems or obstacles.


LIBRA | September 23-October 23

Question - What plants are in your life regularly?
Meditation - plants as allies.
Assignment - Return to your relationship to plants this week, or begin to cultivate one if you don’t already have one. This could be taking care of a plant, being next to plants, visiting botanical gardens, noticing street trees and plants, etc. Plants are everywhere, even in desolate parking lots! Plants find a way, they are resourceful, they heal our planet, they live in deep relationship with us. You are so relational, it will heal you to spend time with their nourishment, in any way you can. The more you do this, the more you will know what to do and not be plagued with indecision.


SCORPIO | October 23-November 21

Question - When do you expend unnecessary energy?
Meditation - conserving emotional energy.
Assignment - Let your exhaustion be a signal to you this week - if you find yourself tired, yes sleep and rest from activity when possible. But even more than this, take note of what emotional energy you are expending - and how much of this is habitual versus necessary. Can you relate to others, complete your tasks, and take on less of others’ feelings? This can happen through simple slow breathing, and remembering with intention - I don’t have to take on anyone else’s emotions. I can remember this. This is caring for myself and others the most. The clearer I am about what is mine and what is theirs, the better I can show up, and the more connected I will feel.


SAGITTARIUS | November 22-December 21

Question - What shines in your life right now?
Meditation - shining.
Assignment - Are you taking enough time to appreciate what is shining, what is alive? Are you doing too much so that you miss this? Or is your attention on problems so often that you miss it? So simple, keep it simple, but just notice, write down a few things every day this week - what is alive, what is working, what is shining, what is thriving. There are things - if it feels hard to find them right now, it’s an indication of how important it is to take the time to do so.  


CAPRICORN | December 22-January 19

Question - What forces are you in symbiosis with?
Meditation - vital green.
Assignment - What is helping you that you are also helping? How much do you pay attention to this mutuality occurring in your life? Give yourself time and space to see this, to be with it, to appreciate it, to RECEIVE. This is the main thing - to notice where you are offering, and especially to notice where you are receiving. And when and how you don’t let yourself receive, or aren’t really open to it. Don’t stress if you find this, just be gentle and see it, keep seeing it, and it will shift. Symbiosis is how the planet works, so it’s happening for you, and it brings so much more joy and peace to actively look for this in your life.


AQUARIUS | January 20 to February 18

Question - When and what do you do alone?
Meditation - aloneness as a way to remember togetherness.
Assignment - Spend some time alone this week. It doesn’t matter that much what you are doing but make sure that it’s not something you typically do to distract yourself. Just let aloneness happen, and see what you notice about yourself. Is it scary? Is it calming? Is it easy? What is your mind doing? How much does your mind think about the future or past when you were with people? What happens when you try to bring it back to the present? What does it mean to be in a relationship with yourself?

 

PISCES | February 19 to March 20

Question - When do you stand in the wind?
Meditation - messiness.
Assignment - Let yourself be messy this week, don’t worry about cleaning up. You can do that next week. Let yourself feel what needs to be felt, let yourself be a Pisces all the way this week. Attend to your inner life. Attend to receiving. Attend to loving the mess itself, practice not wishing it were different. Allow, allow, allow.

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adrienne maree brown is:
– a writer
– a sci-fi/Octavia Butler scholar
– an organizational healer
– a pleasure activist
– a facilitator
– a life/love/relationship/work coach
– a network weaver
– a speaker/singer (including wedding singer) and
– a doula
living in Detroit.

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adrienne maree brown wrote a book that continues to transform my thinking about so many things. It deepens connections between all of our locations and selves - it continues to help me rethink what activism and transformation looks like on the daily. Read Emergent Strategy! Read adrienne's blog! Follow her on instagram! Her work is a beautiful expression of Virgo energy - and so many more things - but it's so damn thorough, in such deep relationship with nature and life itself, so humble, smart, honoring and naming all the influences and resources from which she draws ... the principles she's collected feel essential in a million ways right now. So happy to share these words of hers below in this interview.

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1. When do you experience the most joy?

When I am facilitating a room full of history-makers and we break through societal blocks to experience freedom together. When I have a new idea and room to dream it out. When I am reunited with people I love. When I am anticipating pleasure. 

2. From engaging with your writing and speaking, I see the Virgo qualities of analysis and humility, awe of the natural world, fascination with and study of efficient processes and systems, etc. There’s so much practical, grounded material in your work - I wonder if you experience the typical Virgo struggles of overanalysis, self-criticalness, getting lost in the details? (It seems, in a way, that Emergent Strategy could be a self-help manual on how to manage and heal those tendencies!)

Oh for sure. Whenever something goes 'wrong' my first words/thoughts are still some variation of calling myself an idiot. I am able to catch it quickly now, or catch the perfectionist tendency, and move through to the work. But I am atypical in terms of the details - I like to work with people I trust and task out a lot of details, I give myself permission to obsess over details at the level of words and facilitation, because those are areas where I can see my unique offer most clearly. The rest I let go, sometimes to my detriment. The key is learning to trust - a lot of those traits are rooted in not trusting. Virgos who trust live fuller, less anxious lives.

3. What practices / people / places feel most alive for you right now in healing and transforming challenging patterns in your life? How have those practices / people / places evolved over time?

Meditation and therapy, especially somatic therapy, feel like necessary practices for me and for all people. It's hard for me to trust people who don't have a way to get quiet, to reflect on their lives, to take responsibility for their emotional states. That has been a big learning for me - there is the life that you get, and there is what you make of it. That second part is the space where art, beauty, grace, humor, humility, surrender, magic - all the good stuff comes in through the work you do to shape your life. I love that I am learning to listen to my body, listen to the memories there, listen to the present moment in me, listen to the future adjusting my current actions. 

4. How do you relate to urgency, when it arises, in your current life? When do you act on urgency? When do you not act on it? How do you decide how to respond to it?

Sometimes I ignore it. Sometimes it really motivates me into action. I am really not interested in urgency guiding my life except at a spiritual level. I believe we are in a time that needs our spiritual attention in an urgent way, needs us to wake up in an urgent way. I have an internal process though - I don't do things out of obligation - urgent obligation makes life feel falsely important or impossible. I really tune into my own passion, whether I can actually be useful. I don't give too much attention to things that I can't see a way to impact.

5. At the end of Emergent Strategy you talk about how the whole motivation of the book is love. Does the presence of this love feel persistent? Does it ebb and flow, or are there times it feels harder to connect to it? What do you do if / when it does feel more distant? And if it doesn’t ever feel distant, why do you think that is? 

Love is constant. My perspective gets shaped by my suffering and my practices. Struggle, suffering is also constant. I let my suffering be a measure of my love of life, freedom, connection. That shifting of perspective is a practice. It's one thing to know love is there. It's work to surrender into it. Life's work. 


ARIES | March 21-April 19

Question - Where does your attention predominantly rest?
Meditation - mimicry.
Assignment - Look around to the natural world, the non-human species, and see what patterns and behaviors you want to integrate. What do you admire about plants and or animals? What do you notice about them that's different from us? What can you mimic of their behavior that might help your life? Slowing down to observe others a bit can change your life. So much information is available that you sometimes don't make time for. Make time for it this week.

 

TAURUS | April 20-May 20

Question - Where and when do you avoid going deeper because you are scared? 
Meditation - rooting further down.
Assignment - Don't resist the urge to connect to roots this week, whatever that means to you. To develop and deepen your own roots. You can be used to digging your heels in as an automatic aversion to change, but what happens if you try to root deeper instead of digging deeper? Rooting deeper is intentional, it's going with a natural process instead of resisting it. It's for a purpose, to strengthen life. Take note of the opportunities to go deeper for the purposes of strengthening your life and your community's life this week.

 

GEMINI | May 21-June 20

Question - What does the opposite of distraction look like for you?
Meditation - this moment.
Assignment - You can be overly positive or negative depending on where your attention is. Take note of this tendency this week. Gemini loves to categorize and label and give language to everything - which serves you well, but it can be a distraction from directly experiencing what is happening. There is a difference between what is happening and naming what is happening. Play in this area this week, spend time attuning yourself to this difference and see what you notice. 

 

CANCER | June 21-July 22

Question - Where is your spiritual party and where are your spiritual friends?
Meditation - noticing spirit.
Assignment - Give yourself permission to nourish your spiritual life this week. I don't mean do new things, although that could be part of it. I mean take notice of what is already spiritually fulfilling in your life. It could be reading an article on your phone by a writer you are inspired by. It could be eating a food with a friend, sharing the love of this food. Spirit is everywhere, it doesn't not exist. It's just our awareness of it that fades and arises. If you're too caught up in your emotional hardships you might miss the miracle of spirit offering itself to you over and over. Look for this, cultivate this.

 

LEO | July 23-August 22

Question - Where are you steady and where are you pliable?
Meditation - grass in wind.
Assignment - Take stock of your fixed tendencies this week, along with the places you have more agility. This balance is so important! Make sure you aren't sticking to an idea or a plan that's outdated, that you're holding onto and confusing with a piece of your identity. The relief to remember here is that ideas have nothing to do with identity, even though we get confused and think they do all the time. So with a lot of gentleness, just review - where am I rigid? Where am I fluid? What does this moment ask of me? It feels so much better to be available to the moment instead of wedded to an old tired idea.

 

VIRGO | August 23-September 22

Question - What do you admire about nature?
Meditation - believing in yourself like you believe in nature.
Assignment - Take note of how you judge nature, or don't judge nature. Practice applying the level of acceptance you have for trees, or ravens, or stars, and the ways that they are, to yourself. You are not separate from these beings, you are in fact made of the same materials, so why would you apply different judgments to yourself? Why would you isolate yourself in the exhaustion of self-inflicted harmful thoughts, instead of accepting that you are another facet of nature, being nature? Living this means loving yourself. It doesn't mean you have to force a particular feeling, it just means practicing a gentle acceptance. Here I am. This is enough. I am nature. I am not different from what is alive, therefore I am worthy of respect. 


LIBRA | September 23-October 23

Question - What does it mean to make something more beautiful?
Meditation - balance and imbalance depend on each other.
Assignment - How often do you feel the urge or need to make something better? Different? Improved? What happens if you pause when that urge arises, what if you do nothing instead and see what happens? What new space might this open up for others to do something? What might this allow you to notice that is already improved, or beautiful, or thriving? Pause before you act on this improvement or beautifying impulse this week, and see what happens.


SCORPIO | October 23-November 21

Question - When and how do you give yourself permission to be sexual?
Meditation - sex as life.
Assignment - Experiment with your sexuality as not based on sex itself, or in relation to others this week. What sensations in your experience overlap or might feel related to sexuality on a more subtle level? What ways can you inhabit sex even if you aren't having it, or even if the sex you are having doesn't fulfill you completely. Connect to sex as aliveness, to your own body. Remember (over and over, as a practice) that your sex, your sexuality, is a vital life force that is not dependent on what sex looks like in your life.


SAGITTARIUS | November 22-December 21

Question - When do you let things be small?
Meditation - small.
Assignment - Track your ups and downs this week. Notice your tendency to make things big. Bigness is a part of your default - what happens if you let things be small. Not diminished, but just small and quiet. Your emotional experience. Your language. Your conversations. Your movements. Wherever it feels that you might not have examined this tendency, pay attention and see what happens. You can feel all the things you feel and experience life fully without the bigness, and it will only free you up to experiment with this.  


CAPRICORN | December 22-January 19

Question - Are you taking enough breaks?
Meditation - rest.
Assignment - What do the breaks you take look like? Are the breaks scrolling on your phone? Are they emailing? Are they getting a friend obligation out of the way? Are they still productive in some way in your mind? What is true rest for you? When is the last time you asked yourself that? When is the last time you practiced true rest? When was the last time you let yourself feel a little uncomfortable not doing anything (especially without your phone)?


AQUARIUS | January 20 to February 18

Question - Where is your thought circular, where does it eddy out?
Meditation - the space between noises.
Assignment - Listen for silence this week. In between your thoughts, in between the noises you hear in an hour, in a few minutes. Doing this means being quiet yourself sometimes, let's say at least three times, this week. Being quiet and listening for silence includes turning off your phone during that time. Internal noise, like in your mind, and external noise. See if you can try this out, this kind of listening, without any sense of shame or that things should be different in your life, just as a way to kindly notice sound and silence. It's a different thing to listen FOR silence, instead of to sounds. Where does the silence live? What happens when you put your attention on it?

 

PISCES | February 19 to March 20

Question - What basics in your life are not being attended to?
Meditation - the basics.
Assignment - You are such a dreamer, it can be hard to stay tethered to the earth. Or you can find it frustrating, and tend to neglect basic needs because they feel pesky or beneath you or a waste of time. But this is part of what you are here to learn - how to be embodied, how to live on earth, be subject to earth rhythms and laws, etc. You can still do this with your signature dreamscape overlay, and it's so beautiful when you do! But fighting with or trying to override your need for the basics like food, water, connection on a daily level, will only put you more frequently into resistance and struggle. Let these needs in and nurture them like you let in your dreams. 

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STRANGE FAITH

I’ve been noticing during readings with people how we try to do almost everything with our rational brains, when sometimes this is an overuse and misplacement of this capacity. It’s very useful! But it is overused. What happens if and when we try to use another type of ‘reasoning’ to move through our days, our lives? 

Are we ever asking the question - is this decision or situation really in need of my ‘rational’ thought?

What are we actually calling ‘rational’? 

Are we conflating ‘rational’ with ‘self-critical’ or with ‘harsh’? 

Have I exhausted rational thought in this area? Where has it led me? 

Perhaps it would be valuable to try out another kind of navigation from time to time, especially when you feel stuck or at a dead end. We forget that there are even other ways to be! But as soon as you name any of your thinking as habitual, you make room for a new way, because you see it as a type of thinking at all.

Sometimes writing feels hard. Because my self-critical ‘reasoning’ brain tells me I have nothing to offer, or I’m too tired or busy or can’t do it well enough, etc. But the beauty of any regular practice, is that it provides a constant for noticing what is different and what is the same. (I highly recommend practicing a constant of some kind as a way to deepen your understanding of yourself and life.)

This week writing horoscopes felt impossible. And then I realized I needed to let another part of my brain, or life, take over. I needed to connect to the energies of the signs again themselves, and just let it happen on the other side of rationality. I’m not sure exactly what that means but I’m sharing it because I think it’s worth exploring. 

So often getting ‘desperate’ is something we avoid, but it can be such an important place to be. It’s the place where you give up and think things are hopeless and that is exactly when you inadvertently create a new space for a new way. This is a part of the learning process! (This is something I continue to learn and re-learn.) But! We have to practice at least the smallest bit of faith during that desperation that a new way can come. Just enough to try to remember that desperation can lead us somewhere, and in fact it is often a part of the path to anywhere.

I’m with you in whatever strange faith we can muster right now.


ARIES | March 21-April 19

Question - Who supports you?
Meditation - lavender
Assignment - Spend time writing or contemplating how you can allow more support into your life.

 

TAURUS | April 20-May 20

Question -  What places in your life do you seek false security?
Meditation - peach
Assignment - Meditate and write on what is true security, what is truly secure.

 

GEMINI | May 21-June 20

Question - What is your own unique offering?
Meditation - orange
Assignment - Pull back from your connections for a moment and contemplate what is your own offering, what no one else can contribute except for you. Find more ways to offer that.

 

CANCER | June 21-July 22

Question - How much of your life revolves around a plan?
Meditation - lemon yellow
Assignment - Abandon the plan and sit under a tree. Abandon the plan and remember who you used to be before you started participating in and making plans. Give that person permission to live here and now.

 

LEO | July 23-August 22

Question - What if your creative expression depends on all the times in life when you don’t feel creative?
Meditation - violet
Assignment - Write about what it would feel like and look like to not be creative, to not create. See what you discover.

 

VIRGO | August 23-September 22

Question - Who would you be and what would you do if all the problems were resolved?
Meditation - royal blue
Assignment - If you know how to swim, and how to dive, dive into some water this week. If you don’t, find another physical way to dive into your very own life.


LIBRA | September 23-October 23

Question - When do you feel the most vibrant and at ease?
Meditation - fuchsia
Assignment - Just letting what you already did be enough for right now, minding your own business, giving yourself permission to shine just for existing, by yourself.


SCORPIO | October 23-November 21

Question - When and how do you separate yourself from people or pull away
Meditation - silver
Assignment - Contemplate what it would look like to separate from people, in whatever ways you do, just a little less. Especially when you are feeling isolated, reach out.


SAGITTARIUS | November 22-December 21

Question - How conscious are you of the agenda you carry as you go through your day?
Meditation - purple
Assignment - Watch the birds. What are they doing? What do they care about? What are they communicating? What can you learn from them?


CAPRICORN | December 22-January 19

Question - When do you regret playing it safe?
Meditation - gold
Assignment - Write down three risks you want to take while it’s still 2018. Then take them.


AQUARIUS | January 20 to February 18

Question - Where and what do you have faith in, that you don’t typically call faith?Meditation - turquoise
Assignment - Meditate on your connection to strangers all across the world, human and other than human. Let your heart fill with this connection, even if your brain can’t get there.

 

PISCES | February 19 to March 20

Question - What evidence is life providing you that it is taking care of you?
Meditation - spring green
Assignment - Spend time surrounded by green, looking at trees or anything else that is green. Immerse yourself.